Love has a Past Tense TooIt's biblical how fucked my sleep can bebut before I go, there's just one thing
you're the one that I need. I'm the one that you loatheand every time you've fed me the line, "You mean so much to me
"just keep telling yourself that "I'm a diva!"And that was the day that I promisedthat the curtain calls my name. I'm not afraid
Don't you see? I'm the narrator and this is just the prologue.You're ready to break(with unapologetic apathy)and I always can find you again.I bet you're not fucking pretty on the insideavoiding the spots where we'd have to speak.When you whisper it nice and low:there's no place you'd rather be in now
or lethal injection, or swing from a rope if you dare.Don't make me change my mind;now that I'm stronger I've figured outthat you know where to find me,where my friends could see a different side of me.
A Different Side Of MeI want people to know,That there's a different side of me,That you can't see.It's not visible from the outside,Until I use a pen,To put it into words.I can't talk about all the feelings,The lovey, romantic feelings,In the same way I write them.I could tell him I love him,A million times,But writing it down once would give it more meaning.
Fireworks Pt. 1Zach never liked to celebrate the 4th of July; and Cameron couldn't figure out why. All throughout high school he would decline invitations to cookouts, parties, and fireworks; and this continued on into his young adult years. On the rare occasion that he would attend 4th of July events he was never very lively; he usually just sat off to the side with a drink while everyone else had fun. He would watch the fireworks, but not with everybody else. Zach loved fireworks, so even his aversion to the holiday couldn't keep the small grin off of his face whenever the amazing pyrotechnics lit up the sky.Cameron knew all of this, so instead of going to 4th of July parties with his family or friends he decided to invite Zach over to spend the night. Nathan, Michael, and Dillon were all attending parties and they were sad that Zach and Cameron wouldn't be joining them, but they knew Zach wasn't much of a 4th of July guy so they understood why he'd wanna stay home and why his boyfriend would be t
The Next MorningZach jumped when he felt the knock on the door."Zach? Zach, are you okay?" He heard Cameron's worried voice through the door.Zach opened his mouth to lie but all that came out was a sob. He covered his mouth with both hands and cursed himself when he felt the door swing open."Zach!" Cameron exclaimed when he saw his best friend sitting on the floor with tears running down his face.Cameron got down on the ground and threw an arm around the older boy, using his other hand to turn the boy's head so they were facing each other."Zach, what's wrong?" He asked; his eyes and voice both full of concern."Nothing." Zach whispered and Cameron gave him a look."Yeah, because you're one to sit on my bathroom floor and cry over nothing. Talk to me."Zach shook his head and turned away. "I can't." He whispered."Why not?" Cameron was alarmed; Zach never refused to confide in him. They were best friends after all.Zach just shook his head. "I
I think I'm just gonna go home Cam." He said, sta
Zameron: Can't Sleep TonightZach pulled back the curtain and tapped Cameron on the shoulder. He couldn't help but smile when Cameron started squirming, rubbing the sleep from his eyes. When he finally opened them and saw Zach peering into his bunk, he smiled back."Mind if I join you?" Zach whispered. Cameron tried his best to scoot over."Not at all," he mumbled, still sleepy. Zach, as silently as possible, climbed into the bunk with him. Both boys shifted in the bed until Zach was pressed against Cameron's back, his arms around him. Cameron pushed back against him, removing all space between their bodies. Zach ducked his head down, resting his forehead against the back of Cameron's head. He let his eyes fall shut as he inhaled, taking in Cameron's scent."Couldn't sleep?" Cameron mumbled. He took one of Zach's hands in his."I probably could," Zach replied. "But I didn't want to. Not by myself, anyway."Cameron smiled. He felt Zach shift again, and his arms were no longer around him. Cameron was going to object